The Challenge in Trying to Live Vulnerable and Brave
It was a Sunday and I was childless. Believe me, these are the days I don't look forward to but then end up enjoying. I miss my kid too much when she's with her Dad. So those weekends are usually filled with mindless activities to keep my mind occupied. But this Sunday was different.
So I did the Netflix binging thing. I have not done that shit in a long damn time. So after watching mindless shows and movies I found Brene Brown's lecture. And hence the living vulnerable and brave thinking was ignited that day. I felt empowered! I felt strong! Yes! I need to live my true self. I need to be real. I need to be me. Where's my damn cape... I feel like Superwoman! But here lies the challenge, not everyone is ready to receive that from me. Not everyone is ready to hear or see me live my truth. WHAAAAT!
This means you may lose people in your life! YUP! Messed up! Thanks a lot Brene! LOL You may lose people that do not want to hear the truth....YOUR truth. And as much as it hurts and its disappointing, it is what it is. Feelings, emotions, thoughts are owned by you. No one can make you feel in anyway. You own that. However, there are behaviors from others that may trigger your feelings. And hell yeah, use your voice to express that.
But at the end of the day, if you lose those people, what would've been the alternative? To live a lie? To not use your voice? To not express feelings, thoughts, emotions? Fuck no. Who wants to live an egg shell walking life. Not me!
So as I ponder how living vulnerable and brave decreased my social circle, from the size of a living room to a NYC bathroom, I looked at those that were left. And I thought to myself, these are my people. This is MY tribe. They accept my truth. They accept me! How blessed and amazing that is!
Be forewarned, living vulnerable and brave may piss off a shitload of people. Let's see how this works for me next month. Can it get smaller than a NYC bathroom? Maybe. But hey, I'm living my life how I chose to live it.